just a random Sunday

Ok, I know it's been a million years. Well, maybe only 2 months and 28 days. But that's still a long time.

I guess I should explain what's going on. I'm bitter towards my stepfather. Not normal bitter, either. It's like whenever he comes in the room I leave. This means I spend about half the time in my room in the basement. I may have grown another layer of skin for warmth. But anyway, I can tell it's driving him crazy. The annoying part is that he's blaming it on the fact that I'm a teenager. AARGH!!!!!!!!!

Ok, in other news...it's almost summer, so I'm getting to that resolution stage I always have. Let me explain. In my mind, I'm always going....I'll swim four times a week, lose fifteen pounds, bike three times a week, find a part time job, etc. Then I don't do any of it and am angry of myself so I overeat and gain more weight. Then winter comes and I tell myself that I'll just lose the weight in the summer, but don't dwell on it. Then I eat more.

My resolution stage is actually really good this time. Since Mom bought me brown board shorts so I'm not embarrassed about my mountainous thighs when I swim, I'm actually going to. I'm going to swim in the outdoor pool a lot, and the aforementioned stepfather is going to pull out an old bike for me. The biggest thing? I'm going to cut down on TV and actually get into a sleeping schedule. I know I'll be tons healthier if I do.

Also? The school year's ending. I have NO excuses to see M over the summer. He's not even in my stake. No contact all summer. Almost three months. I'm going to give him my e-mail address, but I don't he'll do anything about it. No contact? It'll suck. It'll force me to spend my summer on self-improvement.

I'm done venting.